Andyzon1’s Exploding Head Experiences

Early in August 1993, I was walking on my way to work. When all of a sudden, I was hit and swamped by a massive tidal-like force (like jumping into a swimming pool). Shouting in shock and surprise. It felt like I had been hit by an invisible energy tidal wave and left at the bottom of an invisible energy sea. The instant that the wave hit, it felt like a pair of invisible energy hands were cupping my brain from above and below, and gently pressing the two hemispheres of my brain together.

The two halves of my brain felt like two hemispheres of water that were jelling and blending together into one sphere. All of a sudden my brain jelled and exploded into an infinitely bright, infinitely white, infinitely loving, all knowing, divine light! My mind went totally and absolutely crystal clear. Clearer than I could ever have imagined. Every negative thought that I had ever felt had simply ceased to exist.

The infinite cleansing divine white light energy then automatically released from my head and flooded down my body, arms and legs. Walking along I felt truly invincible! It felt like my head had been instantly removed and replaced by all universes of universes everywhere! My mind stretched infinitely in all directions. I was "one" with all of existence. I "was" all of existence!

It felt like I had a "Black Hole" in the center of my back and a corresponding "White Hole" in my stomach, sucking all energy in existence through my body and pouring it out into the universe! I was immortal! I was God! It felt like I had been alive infinitely. All of which I had forgotten! This is "Heaven"! Heaven is infinitely more exciting vibrant and alive than (so called) life on Earth.

I could not see any ethereal people or dwellings, I just felt unlimited unconditional universal love returned to me by everyone who had ever lived! (I began thinking about my parents and partner, and if I died, then they would be heartbroken. But what would seem like a lifetime of grief to them, would only seem like an instant in time for me, until we could be together again eternally. For some reason I was being given the choice to go - die - or stay - live. I decided immediately that I could not leave them alone. I wanted to tell the whole world about my experience).

Twelve minutes after my experience began, it began to fade. I said to myself "Oh no! Please don't go!" But it went! Everything turned back to normal (to abnormal!). I was absolutely devastated that my experience had ended.

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In the early hours (approx 4am) of Monday 20th October 2003...

"OUT OF SPACE & OUT OF TIME" where the ONE lives ETERNALLY. There came a FORCE that jelled with my brain. Then CAME a gurgling screeching noise IDENTICAL to that made by Neo when UNPLUGGING from the Matrix. My becoming a VORTEX whooshing down a plughole...LOSING BOTH "MY" IDENTITY and "MY" PHYSICAL BODY.

THEIR VANISHING DOWN THE PLUGHOLE to be replaced by a REAL and INFINITELY SMALL AND INFINITELY LARGE "DOT"/A "GRAVITY UNIT"/A "NEUTRALITY DOT"/A "NEUTRALITY POINT"! A "POINT" that is the "REAL ME"! A "POINT" that is the ONE! A "POINT" that HAS existed / WILL exist eternally!

I saw/touched/BECAME the MIRROR. Myself, as the WHOLE, had swirled into a VORTEX and UNPLUGGED. I became an infinitely small/infinitely large "gravity unit". I am the "ONE" (Neo). I realized that my body had all along been a REAL FLESH AND BLOOD BODY, but also AT THE SAME TIME a HOLOGRAPHIC PROJECTION!!!!

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October 25th, 2003...

I awoke, and suddenly - totally unexpectedly - my head turned "inside out"! My "brain" and the "universe" swapped places! The "outside world" BECAME "my brain" - like "everything" was made out of my "brain tissue" - my bed, my house, the road, the cars, the Earth, the Planets, the Universe Of Universes were ALL constructed out of "my OWN brain tissue." Likewise, ALL of the "outside universe" RUSHED into my head. The WHOLE Universe Of Universes was in MINIATURE "inside of my head"!

My mind was sent reeling by this "PHYSICAL" happening! It was NOT a "mental" but a "PHYSICAL" happening. Everything had IN REALITY "swapped places"! A few hours after the above "swap" happened. As if I didn't already have enough to contend with!!!

Suddenly, without warning, my mind was "HIT" by a REAL MASSIVE EXTERNAL EVIL "DARK FORCE"!!! A MASSIVE INFINITE "Dark Force" beyond my strength to endure "exploded" into my head. It was too much even for me! I wanted to "smash" my head in - to get rid of the invading "force" inside my skull!

A STOMACH CHURNING, HAIR STANDING ON END!!! WANTING TO RUN TO ESCAPE THIS "TOTALLY OVERWHELMING SENSE OF DREAD"!!!! ESCAPE THIS "HELLISH" UNIVERSAL FORCE. ESCAPE THIS "TERROR" BEYOND HUMAN ENDURANCE, BEYOND HUMAN IMAGINATION!!!

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Since my experience in 1993, my life goal has been to RE-CONNECT FULLY WITH SOURCE. I am currently ONE with SOURCE but have not YET re-connected with UNCONDITIONAL UNIVERSAL LOVE.

(Jake response, in brief:)

I was moved by your account and can certainly relate to it, since I've had similar if not same experiences, albeit never in ordinary waking consciousness (instant unplugging has thus far only occurred for me either via psychedelics, or in dreaming).

Thanks for sharing, and I see that you have grokked in fullness the nature of our "lot" here in physical-organic form. These epiphanies are given I believe as a means to signal that way and keep us moving towards that state which we have been so briefly allowed to enjoy, to keep us from succumbing to despair. Seems like your assemblage point is pretty loose and the spirit(s) is (are) really taking you for a ride, in the best sense. Hold on tight, and LET GO.

I guess the only "advice" I'd offer (besides never taking anyone's "advice") is STAY IN GOOD HEALTH, be sure the body is in optimum condition, lest all this information cause a short circuit and your nervous system goes down, as Marilyn Manson put it. This is the primary danger for "premature" unpluggers.

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